scratch that. Brennan's the best ^o^. 
-sarah -sarah -sarah
I find it almost amusing that when I feel I need someone the most, no one is there. Dad; asleep, Mom; doing "something she needs to do with Andrew, Tanya; with Charlotte, Brennan; busy. It was especially nice receiving death glares from Olga and Lisa, simultaneously. I could almost laugh, but i'm too busy crying.
I tried to say what I've been thinking, tried to stop the butterflies and worries, the fears and stomach churning anxiety. One would think it would be easy to simply blurt out what I can't stop thinking about, but all these little nagging voices stop me. Aldin. Steve. Wasn't it the same with them? Didn't you find the words easily? After a month? A week? In the end there wasn't anything real, only fractured illusions that cut and left deep scars. All the time you blamed it on trust.Of course they would never understand that your childhood trials left you unable to trust, unable to completely believe that they loved you. Now it becomes clear...sure trust between the two is always an issue but you never trusted yourself . Is it real or a fantasy you desperately want to believe in? I just know i don't want to fuck this one up. That's what makes it so hard.
"I think i might be falling..."
i think...
i might...
how pathetic.
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