Tany and me ended up in matching plaid skirts to GOMP...it was lotsa fun (no one can refuse hugs and kisses from 2 cute, matching girls hehe).
There was free champagne and lotsa balloons, plus tres cool decorations. Met up with a couple people (Mikers' hair is totally amazing) met some new people and danced until 8am (still tired *Zzz) Poor Matthew though (he was the best of the 3 by far) I hope he doesn't get in too much trouble. Hmms...emailed Brennan (he left me an angry message in my g-book) Trying not to think about him all that much. This is much harder than it sounds. It seems like a good idea now, but i'm afraid of bottling up too much and having an unpleasant break down later...
It seems taking a break from guys isn't going to work out that well. Besides battling break-up whip lash, fending of Scott's weird advances, and Matthew, Steve and Aldin both want to see me. *sighs* I don't even know what i'm supposed to feel right now....
-sarah -sarah -sarah -sarah -sarah -sarah
so here i am at 2 in the morning thinking about Brennan
damn him
the stupid, selfish, mean, unworthy, unpredictable, pasty-skinned, slug-like, lying, treacherous, irresponsible, cheap, moronic prick.
(mms, it does feel nice to get it out of my system)
While I'm at it...he also gets horrible marks and failed his learners test, and harasses McDonalds workers for free food and can't even stay awake past his bed time and carries around stupid, useless knives.
He couldn't even properly dump me, and instead spent an hour fake-smiling (as if i couldn't tell) and making small talk.
And then there's his little Grimsby crony nattering away "Oh Bren is sooo funny hahaha haha"
oops
she doesn't appreciate me writing about her in my blog...
see there's this funny thing called freedom of speech, and its not like anyone is forced to read this rubbish anyways.
Heehee...i love British phrases almost as much as Japanese ones.
Quid, bailiffs, telly...and then there's the stores...Boots, Marks and Spencer, Denny and George..
(yes, i'm rereading shopaholic)
I'm feeling a little better now...time for some zzzzz
Apparently he doesn't feel the same way about me.
It doesn't feel 'right' anymore.
He needs to be alone.
And the jury says ....these reasons are 100% BULLSHIT
Not that I really care to know the real reasons, I would probably end up hurting myself more.
So I cried, I asked him not to, and in the end he said "I can't do this anymore"
Do what? Have fun?! He acted like 4 months of dating was the same as a life sentence.
What's funny is that I can't really cry. I went home and put on my Harry Potter 3 DVD (which is superly awsome btw) and got ready for a big sob fest. (In my experience it is better to get it out of your system rather than pretend you don't care) The most I could muster up was a couple of lone tears.
Later I went to my mom's house (I told her everything) went out for sushi, watched a movie, cried a little, watched TV, cried a little more, and went to sleep.
As far as break ups go it hasn't be so bad (so far anyways).
Now...I guess I have a lot of time on my hands. I want to focus on my studying and YFC.
Guy wise....errr lets hold off on that. To top it off I just got a message from Aldin and I talked to Steve a few days ago. *sigh*
At 1 I have a hair appointment and me and Tanya are going to a wicked NYE party (GOMP is the BEST) so things are looking up.
Besides I promised myself I wouldn't cry over Brennan past 11:59 pm tomorrow night.
Ps. Angel...just knowing you read this is comforting. Thank you for reminding me of the most important thing...God's Love.
Fuck.Fuck.Fuck
If this turns out screwy I'm done with guys.
Seriously
I'll stick to girls until I want to settle down.
I think I need more than a simple explanation.
Concrete reasons for the heart picture, the 'and' ...for why i never heard a single word about this. That she just said it to make me mad isn't enough of a reason.
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On the one hand it's understandable. Hell, Brennan is a lot more than just likeable. I of all people should know that. Although I think its a little unfair to say I'm not allowed to feel something O_o. (i.e I'm not allowed to miss him) On the flip side, my instinctive green monster is screaming for all sorts of unsavoury things. I have to think of the wisest course of action... Hmmms.What worries me is that she says "he can't love me and her can he?"
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