and still nothing
(a couple days = 2-4, not 6)
and he probably is just on the farm being a hippy.
Feeling sort of numb...my dad just launched a triple-attack, with a good smearing of guilt.
i think i'll call jackie...and then, oh yeah, be lame and sit by the phone (or at least bring my phone around with me)
-sarah -sarah -sarah -sarah
this is beyond missing. it's painful
and of course any attempt to put it into writing sounds similar to a twelve year-old's words.
i just can't seem to pick myself up.
be strong.be strong
i'm tired, i can't...i can only pretend right now
he almost feels like a dream. everything is different, and he isn't here.
it's like a ghost...i just want him back me so badly but it feels next to impossible.
(that space between people)
need him back
need to relax
need to get a life
need to grow up
sometimes i just want my life to be plain boring
for now i'll settle with breathing
i hate to be all sappy but i really am missing richie a lot. we have been apart before, but with all these changes, i feel like i really need him ... now
perhaps i'm just being selfish...although he really is my best friend/boy friend and i do confide a lot in him. hopefully he will be back in about a week...the latest he would be back is june 30th. he takes possesion of his condo on July 1st so he has to be back for that at least.
today was my first day at second cup. it wasn't too bad, and my boss loves FELIX, so that rocks. Second cup wastes sooooo much coffee, every hour five 16 cup carafes are dumped. That's a ton of coffee. I think once i get used to the place, i'll enjoy it a lot more. The only major mishap i had today was spraying myself and Mazzy with italian soda, but apparently everyone has done it, so i'm not too worried (although that soda went everywhere *yucks)
tomorrow i'm working a picnic for party perfect. i hate that jodie's house is sooo far away. Check it out - can i be any farther away?? and of course i have to be there right around rush hour *gross.
hopefully richie will give me a ring tonight...i hate this lonely feeling.
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