i feel so icky, just tired and angst-y, and worried.
not very pleasant
I'm hoping that once i make it through exams everything will seem at least a little bit more cheery.
(for now i really am very Scrooge-like, i mean i haven't even watched Grinch yet, i didn't help set up the Christmas tree/village and i haven't even contemplated Christmas shopping yet)
"And for your present, I passed my biomaterials midterm!!"
Part of me just wants to go forward by myself. Just face up and tell them that I need to be alone. alone alone.
Then of course i get all paranoid and clingy and think about the fun that i am having (and with whom)
Other times i just put off thinking about this type of thing.
It really has surprised me though...there have been a couple moments when I've been with Lee and all of the sudden it hits me right there. Just in the right spot, sort of a tingly shock that is very nice and yet very confusing.
don't rush anything, just figure out how to breathe for now.
And of course the other moments where it feels like there is something twisted and rotten inside me. Where I feel like i'm on the edge of a realization to awful to get any closer to.
Turn around and you catch it, for a fleeting moment, just barely from the corner of your eye. And then gone, only leaving an unrecognizable feeling clutching at your entrails.
The order of the day: dramatic, angsty and enigmatic. Sorry, but you have wasted your time.
-sarah
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